"For me, I don't intend for you to go Nursing." Unless somehow or other I end up completing the course and further to being a Doctor or what. Wow. Impressive! Sounds so frigging easy to do. It seems as if money no problem, or it's so easy - just follow the steps 1,2,3! Bullshit. Just because she heard a son of a friend of don't know who did it before, it's so possible for everyone. Ever heard of connections and all?
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Whatever.
I won't go. Now I know their answer. I won't go anymore. How the shit can I bear to go to a course that she doesn't intend me to go? Besides, I wouldn't be able to stand it, if I find them talking behind my back. Can imagine her being so relieved and glad if I change my mind.
Accounts. I'm fine with it. Grow money minded, materialistic. Splendid. Hello to $.$ people. This's the third time I've been psychoed out of Nursing into Accounting.
I have no idea where my stubborness disappeared to.
I don't wanthave to think anymore since they already cleared that thought off their mind. No more horseplay. No more beating around the bush. This sucks.
I don't even think she intends to go back to the poly and help me take back my withdrawal paper. With all that delay since morning. Whatever. Don't go then don't go. It doesn't matter much now. Even if I really want to change my mind, I'll just humiliate myself being 1year older than most of the people in the course.
I wonder if I should be angry at myself.
Everytime I get that gush of happiness when I made up my mind to go Nursing. That feeling's all gone. I wonder if it'll come back. =(
I wonder which would bring more happiness to me. Being in the choice course or money? But can money really buy happiness?
Off for now. I'm going to sleep. End of talk. Please do not talk to me about anything regarding these two courses. I've made my decision. Talk about children trying so hard to please their parents, I guess I'm one of them.